It’s easy to read the story of Israelites and judge their behavior. After they had seen how God delivered them from bondage, then allowed them to plunder their enemies, parted an entire sea, and destroyed their enemies how could they possibly not trust God? How could they possibly not trust His faithfulness, His goodness? How could they moan, groan, and complain?
It’s easy to judge until I take a look in the mirror. This last year, God has put on my heart to publish two books and travel to India. In the middle of all that, my daughter decided to get married. I remember last March worrying about how I would afford all of that. But God provided supernaturally for trip to India. He gave me wisdom on how to pay to have the books edited and He even provided the funds for the wedding.
I’m in the last phase of getting the 2nd book published and once again I found myself worrying about provision. I found myself doubting God and doubting what God had spoken to me. But once again, I stepped out on faith and began the final phase of publishing my book.
Do you know what I learned later? God had already provided the funds needed to finish the book. It was literally in my bank account because I got a bonus in my last paycheck that I didn’t know about.
God is faithful even when we are not. He is greater than our fears. He is bigger than our doubts. He is gracious to us even when our faith wavers. When He gives us vision, He also give provision – even if we don’t believe it. God is good. Thankfully His goodness is not dependent upon our perfect faith.
“The whole Israelite community set out from the Desert of Sin, traveling from place to place as the LORD commanded. They camped at Rephidim, but there was no water for the people to drink. So they quarreled with Moses and said, “Give us water to drink.” Moses replied, “Why do you quarrel with me? Why do you put the LORD to the test?””
Exodus 17:1-2 NIV